Toxic

Seen better days!
The ex is driving me crazy.
If you'd ask him - he wouldn't know.
It was toxic for me being in the same room as him during the Promotion Ceremony.
But his lack of regard for me makes me know to get over it and move on.
No more consideration for him ~ I should know better.
So for 2 weeks I've been paralyzed by my thoughts.
Time to write him off.
The final straw was my meltdown today.

Reach for the stars...

My daughter graduated Middle School yesterday. The school had a lovely promotion ceremony. Another milestone! I'm very proud of her. Off to High School come September.

Quite coincidentally, as part of the ceremony, they played the song "100 years" that I posted a few days ago, which I thought was totally appropriate. Their whole life ahead of them.

I let her pick out her gift - I told her I wanted her to have a ring. She chose a beautiful 3-stone emerald cut aquamarine in white gold.

"100 Years"

I'm 15 for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are
I'm 22 for a moment
She feels better than ever
And we're on fire
Making our way back from Mars
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
I'm 33 for a moment
Still the man, but you see I'm a they
A kid on the way
A family on my mind
I'm 45 for a moment
The sea is high
And I'm heading into a crisis
Chasing the years of my life
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy, Time to lose yourself
Within a morning star
15 I'm all right with you
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
Half time goes by
Suddenly you’re wise
Another blink of an eye
67 is gone
The sun is getting high
We're moving on...
I'm 99 for a moment
Dying for just another moment
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are
15 there's still time for you
22 I feel her too
33 you’re on your way
Every day's a new day...
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to choose
Hey 15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
Five for Fighting

Bleu

I am blue and when I think back to the weekend, I was blue on Friday night; lonely and bored. And Saturday...events occurred to accelerate my blueness and then Sunday night I watched a movie and cried throughout the whole thing. What's wrong with me?

Who Am I Trying to Please?

So...my mother and I hung up a few minutes ago in a huff. I rearranged the entire weekend to please the world, not taking into consideration what I might REALLY want to do. I invited mom and dad to breakfast Saturday morning for Father's Day to free up Sunday. I arranged for my kid's dad to take her with him to dinner Saturday night for Father's Day to free up Sunday. On Sunday we were hoping to go to the beach. My s.o. has a cottage on the water beginning Saturday for a week with his kids and siblings and their children and my kid wanted to hang with those kids. So mom says, "see if the beach people buy you a trip to Disney." Totally throwing guilt my way...and I said, "Christ, I'm inviting you to breakfast Saturday." And then she said goodbye. They just booked a trip to Disney for the entire family. So now, because I wanted to do something on Saturday instead of Sunday for Father's Day I should feel guilty. And should I now be changing my plans? Because they're getting older and more peculiar, I might add, they don't want to come to breakfast Saturday. Heaven forbid. So now I look like a loser. And if I now change my plans and go sit in my sister's yard on Sunday afternoon I'm going to be especially pissy because it will be well known the only reason I'm there is because my mother and I had words. She'll be pissed and I'll be pissed. Lose, lose situation.

A New Life Begins

So Baby Berry will be entering the world today. A little early, which would please his momma though! I wish them all the best.

So its been an eventful past week. A lot has been accomplished. In addition to my beach vacation, I will be going to Disney with the entire family in August. The kids are thrilled.

I was driving down a local town road on Friday behind someone who was obviously so messed up that they had a difficult time staying in their own lane. The car was ping-ponging from one curb, in the oncoming traffic lane, to the curb on the opposite side numerous times and her little dog almost flew out the window. After watching, horrified, as she almost hit 3 people head on, I called 9-1-1. Ironically we passed Police Station while I was on the phone with them as I pleaded for them to send someone as quickly as possible because we were now approaching an intersection. They asked me to continue to follow but keeping my distance. Well, after a few minutes she took a turn into a package store (!). As she entered she hit a parked car as this guy was just entering the car with his six-pack. Shortly thereafter the police arrived and I stayed long enough to watch her hand-cuffed and placed in the back of the police cruiser. I wonder what happened to the pup?

And at work, it's soooo busy ~ I incorporated a project to include Mark's company, DTG to aid us in running monthly reports.

When you have a uterus, then we can talk....

.....my male doctor was discussing menopause with me and he said "If I were you...." and in my head I was thinking "Doc, when you have a uterus, then we can talk!" I appreciate the sentiments, but do men have to worry about TO hormone or not to hormone?

I'm very excited because myself and a co-worker bought tickets to see John Edward in a gallery setting in September. Of course, we're not guaranteed to get a reading but it is very exciting just the same. A reading would be the cream on the cake considering we spent a sizeable amount to get these tickets.

My s.o. is leaving tomorrow morning for a fishing trip. He returns on Sunday. I find this a time to catch up on cleaning, trying to get my house in order.

I'm trying to take the right steps to watching what I eat and exercise more. Wish me luck!